Produced and mixed by John Cornfield.
Recorded at Sawmills Studios, Cornwall.
lyrics
If I look scared, it’s ‘cos I’ve lost all of my fear
If I look tired, it’s ‘cos I haven’t slept in years
If you can see me crying, it’s ‘cos I’ve been drained of all my tears.
And I try not to smile but it’s too hard to hide
It’s all in your eyes, everything that I need to survive,
To just get by.
If I look cold, it’s ‘cos I’ve been living on the streets
If I seem distant, it’s ‘cos I’ve gone into retreat.
If you can see right through me, it’s ‘cos I’m a long way from complete.
And I try not to smile but it’s too hard to hide
It’s all in your eyes, everything that I need to survive,
To just get by.
I don’t want to sound depressing,
But this situation is quite upsetting,
There’s nothing left here for you to see in me.
If I seem excited, it's 'cos you've been so hard to find,
If I look worried, it’s ‘cos I’ve got lots on my mind,
If you can hear me screaming, it's 'cos I’ve got so much to shout about.
And I try not to smile but it’s too hard to hide
It’s all in your eyes, everything that I need to survive,
To just get by.
credits
from Last of Many,
released October 5, 2011
Words by Jon Bretman. Music by Jon Bretman and Nigel Thomas.
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